Is this goodbye?

Sadness is beautiful, loneliness is tragical.

I have signed my contract with IBM, but somehow, I can't seem to say to the world, "I have made the big leap". Somehow, there's still this small window of opportunity that I'll stay here in Clark. But my pride is telling me to go. My heart tells me to stay, my head tells me to go.

This dilemma has probably caused my state of unliquidity (:p) right now - I keep buying new clothes like there's no tomorrow. I spent around 4,000 PHP in Mango yesterday, bought 2 pairs of Havaianas and today, I went to Giordano and bought new tops.

If there's someone who is manic-depressive, I'm a maniac-shopaholic.

My credit card has reached its limit - my Dad is going to kill me.