straight men suck

Argh. I hate them. I was supposed to have a mock date with one of its kind this Saturday. But I don't think it's going to happen.

Garvin's brother died.
I haven't even met the guy but I feel sad.
There were just too many death's happening this year.
I wonder when will be mine?
I also wonder if they will also react the same way in case someone close to me died.
Not that I can afford to have someone close to me die. Again.
But I just wonder.
Maybe getting hospitalised?
I don't know.
I've been dreaming lately that I keep getting shot by a gun.
Who has been shooting it? I don't know.
My dreams are misplaced lately.

Misplaced.
Heh.
All of my feelings are misplaced.