don't get lost in the crowd

There are so many emotions running through my head and through my heart right now.

I never thought I'd ever lose respect for the man that I admire without question until tonight. As expected, I was interrogated and berated again by the parental units because of my change in location. As expected, they toed the line with Wayne - that I shall never set foot in it again - it never really sank in how sad that is until now really.

I know it's just a piece of metal - but their reasons behind why they're taking it away is something that I can't stand. They accuse me of doing things that I didn't do - I should have just done what they're saying at least I did the crime instead of being accused of it.

I will never forget what he said to me. That I should just commit suicide and die because I'm going down that path anyway.

I really don't know what he wants out of me to be honest with you.

This should be my mantra. Don't get lost in the crowd. This song is off Center Stage if anyone's wondering btw.

"Don't Get Lost In The Crowd"

You are the one that keeps your dream alive
And you are the one who feels the rhythm deep inside
Do you ever wonder if you can make you fly?
But you will never know, if you don't really try

There's so many fast frames
Quick cuts and a million stars
Can make you wonder
Can make you dream
Ahead from the start
When you know your heart
And follow your own destiny

Don't get lost in the crowd
Be the one to be strong and turn heads around
Even from dark to light
You are the spark
You have the fire
You are the heart
Now be a believer
Don't get lost in the crowd

Look around you
You may not be the latest fashion or in a magazine
Or under high profiles
But you will be a sweet inspiration
If you got your own style

There's so many fast frames
Quick cuts and a million stars
Pulling you away from what you really love
If you sing your own song
Straight from your heart
You'll find yourself rising above

Don't get lost in the crowd
Be the one to be strong and turn heads around
Even from dark to light
You have the spark
You have the fire
You are the heart
Now be a believer
Don't get lost in the crowd

'Cause we live in a world of so many choices
It's hard to find our own voices
And keep going on from day to day
So get with the earth, and get with the sky
Get with the inside

Don't get lost in the crowd
Be the one to be strong and turn heads around
Even from dark to light
You have the spark and the fire
You are the heart
Now be a believer
Don't get lost in the crowd
Be the one to be strong and turn heads around
Even from dark to light
You have the spark and the fire
You are the heart
Now be a believer
Don't get lost in the crowd
Be the one to be strong and turn heads around
Even from dark to light
You have the spark and the fire
You are the heart
Now be a believer
Don't get lost in the crowd

So what do I really want out of my life anyway?

I want my FREEDOM.